This blog is to keep track of my writing (from Oct. '14 onward), saving tips and tricks I find, little rants or raves, and so on. If you don't like it, kindly leave. I am a fangirl and reviewer, so do tend to post on that note as well.
I am back to report with more tag/quiz/answer things!
Why? Because me being myself, and stalling with ideas and no Sims working (I'll have a post on that soon enough), I have reverted to keeping my blood pressure under check by easily answering questions. Except, I answered most of these days ago... oh well.
1.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
= So, backstory time! My Nannie was an avid smoker, had COPD, many health issues, and had to quit cold turkey at one point or she'd die. She succeeded in quitting and lived for years afterwards. My dad has smoked, my stepmom, my mother; a lot of people have, and I don't, and won't, but I have no judgement. Long story short: I can go forever without smoking a cigarette.
2. Are
you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? = Single.
But this pond I'm in is a bit small to even try...
3.
What if I told you that you were pretty? = I'd
reply with thanks, telling you the same.
4.
Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? = ...I
basically said that to my first official boyfriend... through text
message, too. Heh... yeah. 12 y/o me was very much in it for the feels, huh?
5. Are
you interested in anyone right now? = Oh, of
course. From a far. Way a far.
6.
What are you looking forward to in the next week? = Youth
Group is tonight and... I'm excited. Never really have been, so I'm
curious why my brain is like, “YESSS YOUTH GROUP!” Other than
that... I have no official plans. I wound up not going because we felt icky, so we stayed home. Now I am waiting for the Fall Festival nearby and hoping my blood pressure doesn't give me issues.
7. Do
you want to be single? = I am
single, but I don't want to be. Weeeeelllll... then again, I do but I don't, but I do because people, but I don't because companionship.
8. Did
you go out or stay in last night? = Babysat
my two lil bros.
9. How
late did you stay up last night? = I
promised my bros I'd stay up late with them, but I fell asleep as
soon as my dad left for work. Then woke up at 3 AM, and stayed up...
10.
Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? = I had
one official boyfriend in
all my nineteen years. Personal issues (health) caused me to not
really get to experience teenage dating – I'm sorta thankful for
that, honestly – and now I'm ready to date. But I live in a tiny
town and a small area in general. I haven't gotten to like someone a
lot, really.
11.
Last three things you had to drink? = Water,
coffee, and pickle juice. Don't judge me.
12.Have
you pretended to like someone? = On a
roleplay. Hahaha. Otherwise... no.
13.
Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant
it? = Yes.
Family.
14.
Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3
months? = My
Meme. And my cats. No one else.
15. Is
it hard for you to get over someone? = If I
care a lot, yes. If I don't, probably not. Even with people who were close to me... if we have serious issues, bye bitch.
16.
Think back five months ago, were you single? = I
have been single since I was twelve.
17.
What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? = It is
11.15 AM. I was... cleaning? I don't know.
18.
Hold hands with anyone this week? = Myself. And my cats.
19.
Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? =
Probably. Because what I like is pina coladas, and I can drink those
virgin.
20.
What would you name your future daughter? = Alexa
was my dream name, but I dislike children.
21. Do
you miss anyone? = Badly,
badly.
22.
Have you kissed three or more people in one night? =
Hahahahah-- no. First off, germs. Second, house rat right here.
23.
Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? = I
honestly do not remember. But I kiss my cats, does that count?
24.
Are you good at hiding your feelings? = Oh,
yes. Even when people say I'm not, I am.
25.
Have you ever cried from being so mad? = It is
the only time I cry; I hate it so much.
26.
Who did you last see in person? = Well...
my dad is asleep in the chair over there, so... My Meme is in her chair over there, so...
27.
Are you listening to music right now? = No. But
I'm listening to a Neil deGrasse Tyson documentary.
28.
What is something you currently want right now? = To go
pee.
29.
What is the last thing you said out loud? = “Isn't it cool?" in reference to the dead Tarantula Hawk that is in a jar on my piano.
30.
How is your heart lately? =
Confused, broken, sad, pieced together, stressed.
31. Do
you wear the hood on your hoodie? = Mhmm.
32.
Are you wearing socks? = I never
wear socks unless I need them for sneakers.
33.
What do people call you? =
34.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? = I like myself, and I talk to myself a lot, so I'm guessing the chances are pretty high.
35.
Are there any stressful situations in your life? = so
many. So, so, so many.
36.
Who did you last share a bed with? = Jimmy,
the family chihuahua.
37.
Did you do something bad today? = I dropped the f-bomb a little too much.
38.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? = I
hugged my bro last night basically... while sitting on him and
holding him down.
39. Do
you get stressed out easily? = Depends
on me. Sometimes, yes, sometimes, no.
40.
Will you sing today? = I sing
everyday.
41.
Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? = ALL THE
TIME.
42.
Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? = Meme,
Kristin, Chloe, my cats.
43.
Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? = not
yet.
44.
What are you listening to right now? = Neil
deGrasse Tyson's voice.
45.
What is wrong with you right now? = I need
to pee really bad.
46.
What is on your wrists right now? = my
skin.
47.
Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? = PJ
set... dunno.
48.
What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? = hot
chocolate
49. Do
you make wishes at 11:11? = Used
to.
50.
Are you a good artist? = I'm
alright. My neuropathy makes my hands very unsteady so I fuck up a
lot...
51.
Love really is a beautiful thing huh? = It's
also crazy as hell.Think about it though... love is chemicals. An obsessions, basically, at first. Mixtures of chemicals and growing used to the person and needing them and bonding. If you'd minus one of your chemicals in the formula of love... you'd be scre---
52. Do
you miss the way things were six months ago? = I was
much more emotionally stable, so probably.
53.
Ever been on a golf cart? = Yes,
and jumped off of one while it moved, like an idiot.
54. Do
you have trust issues? =
Sometimes. It all depends on who we're referring to. Do I trust myself to finish things? Never, but let's break that tonight.
55.
Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? = YES.
Chloe Kat & Kira.
56. Do
you own something from Hot Topic? = I used
to own a shit ton, like the emo phasing 12 y/o I was. Now, I miss
it, and I own only a couple things, I think. HP fandom stuff, old Avril Lavigne gloves, and other fandom things.
57. Do
you use chap stick? = Lots.
Current fave is from an Etsy shop called Cedar Creek.
58.
Have you ever slapped someone in the face? = Not
yet. But that's what the beautifully crafted mind is for... for dreaming of revenge and murder. Or slapping faces.
59. Do
you have a little sister? = She
dead. Literally.
60.
Have you ever been to New York? = YES! I
miss it... It was lovely.
61.
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they
meant it? = My
father – I sure hope so.
62.
Have you hugged someone within the last week? = Not a human.
63.
What were you doing at midnight last night? =
Sleeping. Dreaming. Trying to get my heart rate under control at one point.
64.
Have you ever regretted kissing someone? = I have
kissed one person. Regret? No.
65. Is
there one person in your life that can always make you smile? = There
are a lot, actually. But, yes.
66.
Were your last three kisses from the same person? = I have
kissed one person on the mouth and it was the same kid.
67.
Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? = I am
single. Bye.
68.
Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? = Alone,
with my kitten. Or multiple cats.
69.
Will next Friday be a good one? = I am
not a psychic nor an optimist. There is a possibility it will be,
but who knows?
As a moment
of boredom (not really) and then switched quickly to me just trying
to stay awake... I'm venturing back into Buzzfeed to take some
quizzes! Aside from trying to get my online writing career under way
and into commission, I might as well update my blog, too. Besides...
I decided today was the day I'd return to Facebook and-- well-- I'd
rather be on Buzzfeed.
Quiz #1; What's Your Dominant
Character Trait?
Factor has
the biggest influence on your life? > Your Friends
(considerably), Your Parents (hahah-), Your Job (what job?), Level Of
Education (meh), Where You Live (nah, there are januses everywhere),
Signifigant Other (hahaha-) >> I'd probably say my friends. My parents aren't really as much of an influence, and my Meme is like a mother and bestie mixed together-- I learn from their mistakes, but having people like me, like my friends are, is something that helps influence my lifestyle and choices. Some things you can only speak to friends about... not parents. Plus, everything else should be irrelevant minus the whole "where I live" thing.
What's the best way to put your mind at ease? > Read a
book (sometimes, but only depends), Go for a walk (used to be the
cure), cuddle with a pet (no- even though I have one, no-), smoke
some weed (haven't ), meditate, talk to a friend.... >> Read
a book. Although cuddling a pet has some benefits for the well-being
and ease of mind, I have too many cats and sometimes the cuddles are
annoying... and I usually read to distract myself.
Choose a
Disney villain with a distinct personality?
>
Ursula, Yzma, Hades, Jafar, The Queen of Hearts, Madam Mim?
>>
First off, I delete three automatically: Jafar, because he just
sucks. And is like a pedo. Then the Queen of Hearts, because I don't
care for her. Madam Mim, either. So, it leaves me to some of my
favorite villains in Disney: Ursula, the queen of evil; Yzma, the
deranged yet brilliant scientist; Hades, the sassiest God ever. I
think I may go with... Hades. The sass wins.
What food
do you connect to on a spiritual level?
> Pizza,
wine, coffee, chocolate, cheese, guacamole? >> At first I
assumed this would be a bullshit question. Then I saw “coffee”
and melted because... for three years or more I've been known as a
“coffee addict” jokingly by friends-- otherwise, I'd go with
guac. My stepmom might go for wine, my friends for cheese or
chocolate--- me... coffee.
What do
people like most about you? > Your sharp wit, your adorable
awkwardness, your idgaf attitude, your silly nature, your compassion,
your limitless intellect?
>>
This is a conceited question because... how do we know what others
like without taking into consideration of what we like most? I have
no adorable awkwardness, my idgaf attitude is seen as being a bitch,
my compassion comes and goes, I have no silly nature, my intellect is
not like Sheldon Cooper's, so... my sharp wit.
What's your
biggest fear?
Pain, the
unknown, being alone, failure, death, rejection.
>>
Psychologically, and just as a trigger, we are all afraid of most of
the things listed. Death is an all-too-common fear, rejection is a
fear, failure is a fear, being alone is a fear, the unknown is a
fear, and pain is a definite fear since it hurts. For me, pain is
nothing; the unknown is intriguing, being alone isn't too scary,
failure is life, death is inevitable, and rejection is scary.
Rejection, I suppose.
Do you have more regret for the things you've done, or the things you haven't done?
>> Haven't.
Results?
>>
Awkwardness.
>>>
Whaaaaat. “You may not be the most socially graceful person, but
you're absolutely adorable-” Well, thanks? “Sometimes you act a
little weird, but who doesn't?” Eh, true. “You're a delightful
dork, and people love the little quirks that make you unique.” They
also get annoyed because I'm bitchy, sassy, and speak my mind. Plus I
do annoying things, so-- But I'm not too
awkward. I'm decently surprised by this one.
Draft from what may or may not go into my writing of both my Senior Memory Book and my lameass story on Wattpad.
I am a bundle
of emotions and contradictions and nothing less.
And most of the time I continuously
ask myself what my younger, past self would say about who I am now. What would
I say about this me? Would I smile or
judge or question everything? I know I probably would… I would also probably
notice how sad my eyes are and how there’s something off about me. Because even
in the mornings, when I get in the bathroom and see myself in the mirror, I
question why I can’t just break out
of this and feel better… get better… be better to myself. I’ve learned to not
hate on myself as much, and I’ve changed in that sense. The only thing I do is
point out what flaws I have and stick with them and blow them up in my own
face.
…I’m a
teenager that way.
Numerous cats. And by “numerous” I
mean “more than anyone could ever count” – that’s basically all I ever cared
about as a kid. I mean, even in the days when I got my first computer all I did
was type out cat facts and play games. No ten year old could ever defeat my
amazing factual skills over any type of cat you could imagine up. I thought I’d
grow up and be an A+ student, Valedictorian, and become a vet. I wanted to work
with cats and other small animals because they were all I knew growing up. And
that's all I cared about – it was such a burning passion that I did everything
in my childhood to maintain a motherly image to my little, ugly kittens that
came every other month. And they’d die, I’d get upset, and I’d have to move on.
Life worked that way and I knew it. But the older I grew, the more the impacts
really and truly affected me and it wasn’t only cats dying that became the hard
points I’d face… I faced so much.
Even when I was a baby and had no
remembered conscious thoughts of life back then, I learned so much about those
around me – but from who? Those around me, but years later.
Let’s clear the air really quick
though. I’ll tell you who is who, because if not… you maybe be confused.
I have two
parents, like any child begins with. A father and mother who, at points, were
junkies with a love for drugs and a love for… love. They were artists and
music-lovers and crazy kids who couldn’t have had more pain come from a love.
As a result, I was born. I was born to a woman who had had two children before
having me, but she didn’t marry their fathers. I was born to a father who had
plans but abandoned them because life went crazy.
My mother wasn’t a mother complex.
Never should be, and never had to be. Why she went through with the
pregnancies, I have no idea. But something happened. Somehow, someway, she got
mixed up with a guy. This druggie decided to threaten my dad, he threatened to
tear me apart and mail me back in pieces. And though from all accounts of my
father’s journals, my Meme’s words and stories, and my mother’s journal…
Seventeen years after whatever day that was… my father is a whole different
person. Not saying that he’d openly let a stranger murder his child, but my
father spoke of times then as him wanting my mother back and wanting his
daughter to know when she grows up that he never stopped trying.
Woo-hoo! Bible Belt, America. Where all those wacky religious freaks are. And I'm in a Southern state, grew up a Christian, and am an open-minded Earth child who should've been born in Hippie ages.
I took the Belief-O-Matic test and here's my top scores (I took this last year, and I got something totally different!) So... here we go.
>> Top score: Unitarian Universalist. || What is that? Weird name. 100% score for Zoe. So... what is it? Answer is simple and explains a lot about me. > They believe that each person is free to search for his or her own personal truth on issues, such as the existence, nature, and meaning of life, deities, creation, and afterlife. UUs can come from any religious background, and hold beliefs and adhere to morals from a variety of cultures or religion. > Holy- wow. Right? Back then (last year) I didn't see this on the list, but I was very open minded. Later on, I became more and more open to the world, as to myself also. And now I'm seeing this finally. Kinda mad that I'm only getting to this now. Bleh. But it's awesome, huh?
>> Second, 81%, Liberal Quakerism and Taoism. > LQ; Diverse beliefs, from belief in a personal God as an incorporeal spirit to questioning belief in a personal God. Most believe we are all sons and daughters of God. the Light within is accessible to us all. Believe God created the world, but also trust scientists. Few liberal Quakers believe in direct reward and punishment, heaven and hell, or second coming of Christ. Primary focus is nondogmatic: God is love, love is eternal, and our actions in life should reflect love for all of humanity. > Taoism; is a philosophical, ethical, political and religious tradition of Chinese origin that emphasizes living in harmony with the Tao (Dao). http://personaltao.com/teachings/taoism/taoism-101/
>> Third, 80%, Mahayana Buddhism > Includes diverse beliefs; the main Mahayana sects include Pure Land, Zen, and Vajrayana (or Tantric) Buddhism. Believe many countless Buddhas have been on Earth. Like the Theravada, they posit no Creator or ruler God. However, deity belief is present in the Mahayana doctrine of The Three Bodies (forms) of Buddha: Body of Essense, Body of Bliss or Enjoyment, Body of Transformation or Emanation. First is the indescribably, impersonal Absolute Reality or Ultimate Truth that is Nirvana. Second is Buddha as divine, deity, formless, celestial spirit with saving power of grace, omnipotence, omniscience. Third is an illusion or emanation in human form provided by the divine Buddha to guide humans to Enlightenment. They believe in the illusion to ultimate reality. Life after death isn't immediate; negative mental states persist through continual rebirth until one's intentions become wholesom. Once fully enlightened, one is liberated from rebirths, reaching a state of absolut selflessness resulting in ultimate bliss called Nirvana. One becomes Buddha. (Beautiful, huh?) >> Fourth, 79%, Theravada Buddhism
> Doctrine of the Elders; is the school of Buddhism that draws its scriptural inspiration from the Tipitaka, or Pali canon, which scholars generally agree contains the earliest surviving of Buddha's teachings. Believe Four Noble Truths - Buddha's teachings. Dukkha: suffering, unsatisfactoriness, discontent, stress; the cause of dukkha: the cause of this dissatisfaction is craving (tanha) for sensuality, for states of becoming, and states of no becoming. Read more here. >> Five, 71% Neo-Paganism
> Community of faiths bringing ancient Pagan and magickal traditions to the modern age - including mostly Wicca but also Druidism, Asatru, Shamaism, neo-Native American, and more. Neo-Pagan is an umbrella term for various and diverse beliefs with many elements in common. Some Neo-Pagans find no incongruence practicing Neo-Paganism along with adherence to another faith, such as Christianity or Judaism. Some believe in a Supreme being, many believe in a God and Goddess. Many believe in countless spiritual beings. No human incarnations are worshipped. After death, they believe in reincarnation after some rest and recovery in the Otherworld. Evil is imbalance.
Other rankings? 22% Seventh-day Aventists, 19% Baha'i Faith, 34% Roman Catholic, 38% Church of Christ, Scientist, 37% Conservative Christian Protestant, 34% Eastern Orthodox Christianity, 67% Hindu, 19% Islam, 34% Jainism, 58% Liberal Christian Protestantism, 43% Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, 57% New Age, 49% New Thought, 40% Atheism, 51% Orthodoz Judaism, 30% Orthodox Quakerism, 70% Reformed Judaism, 42% Scientology, 58% Secular Humanism, 62% Sikhism, 34% Jehova's Witnesses.
Sites;
belief-o-matic.com
google's instant search results
religions' official websites
I am back to report with more tag/quiz/answer things!
Why? Because me being myself, and stalling with ideas and no Sims working (I'll have a post on that soon enough), I have reverted to keeping my blood pressure under check by easily answering questions. Except, I answered most of these days ago... oh well.
1.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
= So, backstory time! My Nannie was an avid smoker, had COPD, many health issues, and had to quit cold turkey at one point or she'd die. She succeeded in quitting and lived for years afterwards. My dad has smoked, my stepmom, my mother; a lot of people have, and I don't, and won't, but I have no judgement. Long story short: I can go forever without smoking a cigarette.
2. Are
you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? = Single.
But this pond I'm in is a bit small to even try...
3.
What if I told you that you were pretty? = I'd
reply with thanks, telling you the same.
4.
Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? = ...I
basically said that to my first official boyfriend... through text
message, too. Heh... yeah. 12 y/o me was very much in it for the feels, huh?
5. Are
you interested in anyone right now? = Oh, of
course. From a far. Way a far.
6.
What are you looking forward to in the next week? = Youth
Group is tonight and... I'm excited. Never really have been, so I'm
curious why my brain is like, “YESSS YOUTH GROUP!” Other than
that... I have no official plans. I wound up not going because we felt icky, so we stayed home. Now I am waiting for the Fall Festival nearby and hoping my blood pressure doesn't give me issues.
7. Do
you want to be single? = I am
single, but I don't want to be. Weeeeelllll... then again, I do but I don't, but I do because people, but I don't because companionship.
8. Did
you go out or stay in last night? = Babysat
my two lil bros.
9. How
late did you stay up last night? = I
promised my bros I'd stay up late with them, but I fell asleep as
soon as my dad left for work. Then woke up at 3 AM, and stayed up...
10.
Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? = I had
one official boyfriend in
all my nineteen years. Personal issues (health) caused me to not
really get to experience teenage dating – I'm sorta thankful for
that, honestly – and now I'm ready to date. But I live in a tiny
town and a small area in general. I haven't gotten to like someone a
lot, really.
11.
Last three things you had to drink? = Water,
coffee, and pickle juice. Don't judge me.
12.Have
you pretended to like someone? = On a
roleplay. Hahaha. Otherwise... no.
13.
Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant
it? = Yes.
Family.
14.
Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3
months? = My
Meme. And my cats. No one else.
15. Is
it hard for you to get over someone? = If I
care a lot, yes. If I don't, probably not. Even with people who were close to me... if we have serious issues, bye bitch.
16.
Think back five months ago, were you single? = I
have been single since I was twelve.
17.
What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? = It is
11.15 AM. I was... cleaning? I don't know.
18.
Hold hands with anyone this week? = Myself. And my cats.
19.
Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? =
Probably. Because what I like is pina coladas, and I can drink those
virgin.
20.
What would you name your future daughter? = Alexa
was my dream name, but I dislike children.
21. Do
you miss anyone? = Badly,
badly.
22.
Have you kissed three or more people in one night? =
Hahahahah-- no. First off, germs. Second, house rat right here.
23.
Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? = I
honestly do not remember. But I kiss my cats, does that count?
24.
Are you good at hiding your feelings? = Oh,
yes. Even when people say I'm not, I am.
25.
Have you ever cried from being so mad? = It is
the only time I cry; I hate it so much.
26.
Who did you last see in person? = Well...
my dad is asleep in the chair over there, so... My Meme is in her chair over there, so...
27.
Are you listening to music right now? = No. But
I'm listening to a Neil deGrasse Tyson documentary.
28.
What is something you currently want right now? = To go
pee.
29.
What is the last thing you said out loud? = “Isn't it cool?" in reference to the dead Tarantula Hawk that is in a jar on my piano.
30.
How is your heart lately? =
Confused, broken, sad, pieced together, stressed.
31. Do
you wear the hood on your hoodie? = Mhmm.
32.
Are you wearing socks? = I never
wear socks unless I need them for sneakers.
33.
What do people call you? =
34.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? = I like myself, and I talk to myself a lot, so I'm guessing the chances are pretty high.
35.
Are there any stressful situations in your life? = so
many. So, so, so many.
36.
Who did you last share a bed with? = Jimmy,
the family chihuahua.
37.
Did you do something bad today? = I dropped the f-bomb a little too much.
38.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? = I
hugged my bro last night basically... while sitting on him and
holding him down.
39. Do
you get stressed out easily? = Depends
on me. Sometimes, yes, sometimes, no.
40.
Will you sing today? = I sing
everyday.
41.
Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? = ALL THE
TIME.
42.
Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? = Meme,
Kristin, Chloe, my cats.
43.
Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? = not
yet.
44.
What are you listening to right now? = Neil
deGrasse Tyson's voice.
45.
What is wrong with you right now? = I need
to pee really bad.
46.
What is on your wrists right now? = my
skin.
47.
Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? = PJ
set... dunno.
48.
What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? = hot
chocolate
49. Do
you make wishes at 11:11? = Used
to.
50.
Are you a good artist? = I'm
alright. My neuropathy makes my hands very unsteady so I fuck up a
lot...
51.
Love really is a beautiful thing huh? = It's
also crazy as hell.Think about it though... love is chemicals. An obsessions, basically, at first. Mixtures of chemicals and growing used to the person and needing them and bonding. If you'd minus one of your chemicals in the formula of love... you'd be scre---
52. Do
you miss the way things were six months ago? = I was
much more emotionally stable, so probably.
53.
Ever been on a golf cart? = Yes,
and jumped off of one while it moved, like an idiot.
54. Do
you have trust issues? =
Sometimes. It all depends on who we're referring to. Do I trust myself to finish things? Never, but let's break that tonight.
55.
Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? = YES.
Chloe Kat & Kira.
56. Do
you own something from Hot Topic? = I used
to own a shit ton, like the emo phasing 12 y/o I was. Now, I miss
it, and I own only a couple things, I think. HP fandom stuff, old Avril Lavigne gloves, and other fandom things.
57. Do
you use chap stick? = Lots.
Current fave is from an Etsy shop called Cedar Creek.
58.
Have you ever slapped someone in the face? = Not
yet. But that's what the beautifully crafted mind is for... for dreaming of revenge and murder. Or slapping faces.
59. Do
you have a little sister? = She
dead. Literally.
60.
Have you ever been to New York? = YES! I
miss it... It was lovely.
61.
Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they
meant it? = My
father – I sure hope so.
62.
Have you hugged someone within the last week? = Not a human.
63.
What were you doing at midnight last night? =
Sleeping. Dreaming. Trying to get my heart rate under control at one point.
64.
Have you ever regretted kissing someone? = I have
kissed one person. Regret? No.
65. Is
there one person in your life that can always make you smile? = There
are a lot, actually. But, yes.
66.
Were your last three kisses from the same person? = I have
kissed one person on the mouth and it was the same kid.
67.
Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? = I am
single. Bye.
68.
Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? = Alone,
with my kitten. Or multiple cats.
69.
Will next Friday be a good one? = I am
not a psychic nor an optimist. There is a possibility it will be,
but who knows?
As a moment
of boredom (not really) and then switched quickly to me just trying
to stay awake... I'm venturing back into Buzzfeed to take some
quizzes! Aside from trying to get my online writing career under way
and into commission, I might as well update my blog, too. Besides...
I decided today was the day I'd return to Facebook and-- well-- I'd
rather be on Buzzfeed.
Quiz #1; What's Your Dominant
Character Trait?
Factor has
the biggest influence on your life? > Your Friends
(considerably), Your Parents (hahah-), Your Job (what job?), Level Of
Education (meh), Where You Live (nah, there are januses everywhere),
Signifigant Other (hahaha-) >> I'd probably say my friends. My parents aren't really as much of an influence, and my Meme is like a mother and bestie mixed together-- I learn from their mistakes, but having people like me, like my friends are, is something that helps influence my lifestyle and choices. Some things you can only speak to friends about... not parents. Plus, everything else should be irrelevant minus the whole "where I live" thing.
What's the best way to put your mind at ease? > Read a
book (sometimes, but only depends), Go for a walk (used to be the
cure), cuddle with a pet (no- even though I have one, no-), smoke
some weed (haven't ), meditate, talk to a friend.... >> Read
a book. Although cuddling a pet has some benefits for the well-being
and ease of mind, I have too many cats and sometimes the cuddles are
annoying... and I usually read to distract myself.
Choose a
Disney villain with a distinct personality?
>
Ursula, Yzma, Hades, Jafar, The Queen of Hearts, Madam Mim?
>>
First off, I delete three automatically: Jafar, because he just
sucks. And is like a pedo. Then the Queen of Hearts, because I don't
care for her. Madam Mim, either. So, it leaves me to some of my
favorite villains in Disney: Ursula, the queen of evil; Yzma, the
deranged yet brilliant scientist; Hades, the sassiest God ever. I
think I may go with... Hades. The sass wins.
What food
do you connect to on a spiritual level?
> Pizza,
wine, coffee, chocolate, cheese, guacamole? >> At first I
assumed this would be a bullshit question. Then I saw “coffee”
and melted because... for three years or more I've been known as a
“coffee addict” jokingly by friends-- otherwise, I'd go with
guac. My stepmom might go for wine, my friends for cheese or
chocolate--- me... coffee.
What do
people like most about you? > Your sharp wit, your adorable
awkwardness, your idgaf attitude, your silly nature, your compassion,
your limitless intellect?
>>
This is a conceited question because... how do we know what others
like without taking into consideration of what we like most? I have
no adorable awkwardness, my idgaf attitude is seen as being a bitch,
my compassion comes and goes, I have no silly nature, my intellect is
not like Sheldon Cooper's, so... my sharp wit.
What's your
biggest fear?
Pain, the
unknown, being alone, failure, death, rejection.
>>
Psychologically, and just as a trigger, we are all afraid of most of
the things listed. Death is an all-too-common fear, rejection is a
fear, failure is a fear, being alone is a fear, the unknown is a
fear, and pain is a definite fear since it hurts. For me, pain is
nothing; the unknown is intriguing, being alone isn't too scary,
failure is life, death is inevitable, and rejection is scary.
Rejection, I suppose.
Do you have more regret for the things you've done, or the things you haven't done?
>> Haven't.
Results?
>>
Awkwardness.
>>>
Whaaaaat. “You may not be the most socially graceful person, but
you're absolutely adorable-” Well, thanks? “Sometimes you act a
little weird, but who doesn't?” Eh, true. “You're a delightful
dork, and people love the little quirks that make you unique.” They
also get annoyed because I'm bitchy, sassy, and speak my mind. Plus I
do annoying things, so-- But I'm not too
awkward. I'm decently surprised by this one.
Draft from what may or may not go into my writing of both my Senior Memory Book and my lameass story on Wattpad.
I am a bundle
of emotions and contradictions and nothing less.
And most of the time I continuously
ask myself what my younger, past self would say about who I am now. What would
I say about this me? Would I smile or
judge or question everything? I know I probably would… I would also probably
notice how sad my eyes are and how there’s something off about me. Because even
in the mornings, when I get in the bathroom and see myself in the mirror, I
question why I can’t just break out
of this and feel better… get better… be better to myself. I’ve learned to not
hate on myself as much, and I’ve changed in that sense. The only thing I do is
point out what flaws I have and stick with them and blow them up in my own
face.
…I’m a
teenager that way.
Numerous cats. And by “numerous” I
mean “more than anyone could ever count” – that’s basically all I ever cared
about as a kid. I mean, even in the days when I got my first computer all I did
was type out cat facts and play games. No ten year old could ever defeat my
amazing factual skills over any type of cat you could imagine up. I thought I’d
grow up and be an A+ student, Valedictorian, and become a vet. I wanted to work
with cats and other small animals because they were all I knew growing up. And
that's all I cared about – it was such a burning passion that I did everything
in my childhood to maintain a motherly image to my little, ugly kittens that
came every other month. And they’d die, I’d get upset, and I’d have to move on.
Life worked that way and I knew it. But the older I grew, the more the impacts
really and truly affected me and it wasn’t only cats dying that became the hard
points I’d face… I faced so much.
Even when I was a baby and had no
remembered conscious thoughts of life back then, I learned so much about those
around me – but from who? Those around me, but years later.
Let’s clear the air really quick
though. I’ll tell you who is who, because if not… you maybe be confused.
I have two
parents, like any child begins with. A father and mother who, at points, were
junkies with a love for drugs and a love for… love. They were artists and
music-lovers and crazy kids who couldn’t have had more pain come from a love.
As a result, I was born. I was born to a woman who had had two children before
having me, but she didn’t marry their fathers. I was born to a father who had
plans but abandoned them because life went crazy.
My mother wasn’t a mother complex.
Never should be, and never had to be. Why she went through with the
pregnancies, I have no idea. But something happened. Somehow, someway, she got
mixed up with a guy. This druggie decided to threaten my dad, he threatened to
tear me apart and mail me back in pieces. And though from all accounts of my
father’s journals, my Meme’s words and stories, and my mother’s journal…
Seventeen years after whatever day that was… my father is a whole different
person. Not saying that he’d openly let a stranger murder his child, but my
father spoke of times then as him wanting my mother back and wanting his
daughter to know when she grows up that he never stopped trying.
Woo-hoo! Bible Belt, America. Where all those wacky religious freaks are. And I'm in a Southern state, grew up a Christian, and am an open-minded Earth child who should've been born in Hippie ages.
I took the Belief-O-Matic test and here's my top scores (I took this last year, and I got something totally different!) So... here we go.
>> Top score: Unitarian Universalist. || What is that? Weird name. 100% score for Zoe. So... what is it? Answer is simple and explains a lot about me. > They believe that each person is free to search for his or her own personal truth on issues, such as the existence, nature, and meaning of life, deities, creation, and afterlife. UUs can come from any religious background, and hold beliefs and adhere to morals from a variety of cultures or religion. > Holy- wow. Right? Back then (last year) I didn't see this on the list, but I was very open minded. Later on, I became more and more open to the world, as to myself also. And now I'm seeing this finally. Kinda mad that I'm only getting to this now. Bleh. But it's awesome, huh?
>> Second, 81%, Liberal Quakerism and Taoism. > LQ; Diverse beliefs, from belief in a personal God as an incorporeal spirit to questioning belief in a personal God. Most believe we are all sons and daughters of God. the Light within is accessible to us all. Believe God created the world, but also trust scientists. Few liberal Quakers believe in direct reward and punishment, heaven and hell, or second coming of Christ. Primary focus is nondogmatic: God is love, love is eternal, and our actions in life should reflect love for all of humanity. > Taoism; is a philosophical, ethical, political and religious tradition of Chinese origin that emphasizes living in harmony with the Tao (Dao). http://personaltao.com/teachings/taoism/taoism-101/
>> Third, 80%, Mahayana Buddhism > Includes diverse beliefs; the main Mahayana sects include Pure Land, Zen, and Vajrayana (or Tantric) Buddhism. Believe many countless Buddhas have been on Earth. Like the Theravada, they posit no Creator or ruler God. However, deity belief is present in the Mahayana doctrine of The Three Bodies (forms) of Buddha: Body of Essense, Body of Bliss or Enjoyment, Body of Transformation or Emanation. First is the indescribably, impersonal Absolute Reality or Ultimate Truth that is Nirvana. Second is Buddha as divine, deity, formless, celestial spirit with saving power of grace, omnipotence, omniscience. Third is an illusion or emanation in human form provided by the divine Buddha to guide humans to Enlightenment. They believe in the illusion to ultimate reality. Life after death isn't immediate; negative mental states persist through continual rebirth until one's intentions become wholesom. Once fully enlightened, one is liberated from rebirths, reaching a state of absolut selflessness resulting in ultimate bliss called Nirvana. One becomes Buddha. (Beautiful, huh?) >> Fourth, 79%, Theravada Buddhism
> Doctrine of the Elders; is the school of Buddhism that draws its scriptural inspiration from the Tipitaka, or Pali canon, which scholars generally agree contains the earliest surviving of Buddha's teachings. Believe Four Noble Truths - Buddha's teachings. Dukkha: suffering, unsatisfactoriness, discontent, stress; the cause of dukkha: the cause of this dissatisfaction is craving (tanha) for sensuality, for states of becoming, and states of no becoming. Read more here. >> Five, 71% Neo-Paganism
> Community of faiths bringing ancient Pagan and magickal traditions to the modern age - including mostly Wicca but also Druidism, Asatru, Shamaism, neo-Native American, and more. Neo-Pagan is an umbrella term for various and diverse beliefs with many elements in common. Some Neo-Pagans find no incongruence practicing Neo-Paganism along with adherence to another faith, such as Christianity or Judaism. Some believe in a Supreme being, many believe in a God and Goddess. Many believe in countless spiritual beings. No human incarnations are worshipped. After death, they believe in reincarnation after some rest and recovery in the Otherworld. Evil is imbalance.
Other rankings? 22% Seventh-day Aventists, 19% Baha'i Faith, 34% Roman Catholic, 38% Church of Christ, Scientist, 37% Conservative Christian Protestant, 34% Eastern Orthodox Christianity, 67% Hindu, 19% Islam, 34% Jainism, 58% Liberal Christian Protestantism, 43% Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, 57% New Age, 49% New Thought, 40% Atheism, 51% Orthodoz Judaism, 30% Orthodox Quakerism, 70% Reformed Judaism, 42% Scientology, 58% Secular Humanism, 62% Sikhism, 34% Jehova's Witnesses.
Sites;
belief-o-matic.com
google's instant search results
religions' official websites
Name: Zoe Patterson
Known as: Cat Lady - jk! KissDromeda, KissDromedaGirl, Juliane (rp), Hyunchul 현철(rp), Sohee/소희.
Age: Nearly two decades old!
Lives at: Tumblr, AFF, blogspot, Twitter, and currently Evexia.
Country: USA
Favorite Colors: Pastels, Lilac, lavender, any shade of purple basically, white, silver, black, any shade of gray (however, Christian Grey isn't one), clear, any shade of blue, teal, coral, salmon.
Language: English (native), Korean (good enough), Spanish (good enough), intros in Italian, Japanese, Greek, and tagalog.
Hobbies: Writing (ofc), browsing the web, taking care of my cats, drawing, thinking up ideas, playing either Sims or Star Wars, reading, reviewing, dancing, singing, composing.
Favorite Quote: "If you believe in yourself, you're unstoppable."
Likes:
♥ Cats [this is a cat basecode so ofc this is here]
♥ Anything artistic
♥ Korean stuff, and many more cultures, too. I wanted to be an Egyptologist.
♥ Rapping and dancing; composing or choreographing
♥ Tumblr, Twitter, ifunny, etc.
Dislikes:
✖ Haters and fakers
✖ anxiety and depression [suffering from both]
✖ dealing with a lot of stress
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